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Sooooo I haven't really given anyone an update in a while. Why? My life is real shitty right now. Well not that shitty I guess. I have some amazing people in my life that are helping me through everything. I just wanted to get this out there to anyone who may want to know what's been going on.
Long story short, my husband and I have lost our love. He's officially said there's nothing left. So I'm moving out in a week. It's put a lot of pain in my heart and pushed me to a surface-level depression...luckily only surface-level. I don't need to dive into that black hole again. *shakes head* Worst part is today is our 2-year anniversary for our marriage. *bitter laugh* Been working out plans with my amazing sister to help me move forward. Moving in with her and hopefully I'll be able to get a fresh start. New state, new home. Maybe even a job and schooling if I can manage it somehow. *shrugs* We'll see right?
But yeah, that's why I haven't yet posted any pics from my weekend at Naka-kon or Planet Comicon. Or really much of any new pics minus the outfit designs for Tate and Sage of one of my stories.
Rest assured lovelies, I will be ok and I won't fall too deep in my depression. I know how to fight it now that I've been there before. Thank you everyone who has been supporting me and helping me through this. You all know who you are and you all have no idea how grateful I am for it. ^^
Long story short, my husband and I have lost our love. He's officially said there's nothing left. So I'm moving out in a week. It's put a lot of pain in my heart and pushed me to a surface-level depression...luckily only surface-level. I don't need to dive into that black hole again. *shakes head* Worst part is today is our 2-year anniversary for our marriage. *bitter laugh* Been working out plans with my amazing sister to help me move forward. Moving in with her and hopefully I'll be able to get a fresh start. New state, new home. Maybe even a job and schooling if I can manage it somehow. *shrugs* We'll see right?
But yeah, that's why I haven't yet posted any pics from my weekend at Naka-kon or Planet Comicon. Or really much of any new pics minus the outfit designs for Tate and Sage of one of my stories.
Rest assured lovelies, I will be ok and I won't fall too deep in my depression. I know how to fight it now that I've been there before. Thank you everyone who has been supporting me and helping me through this. You all know who you are and you all have no idea how grateful I am for it. ^^
A Tale of Ash/Marko
It’s been some time since I’ve done this.
I don’t really know where i’m going.
Where the start truly is.
The ending is far out of reach.
I just know I need to write this.
My heart is set on it.
As if something has possessed me to get out a story.
A poem.
This tale that has long since been locked up.
To tell you the truth… I don’t really know who I am.
Everyone is supposed to have that label of a name.
My name doesn’t fit me though.
My mother named me Ashley because she didn’t want me to grow up with an uncommon name like hers.
But the thing is, I always envied her name.
It was unique.
It was be
So...
...it's been quite some time since I've actually posted something on here. Honestly, a small part of me doesn't even see the point of posting things half the time...but I do know some of my friends (who I only can contact on here) do actually want to see my art and the progress I've made with it. I enjoy it all too. So there is that. -sighs- I'm just lost anymore. I started working, fell in love, started therapy, and found myself cornered into a harsh and dark place. The person I loved didn't understand me, even when I was openly honest. My work started wracking my anxiety to high levels. My therapy...well it's helping on some levels. Some da
Lost Salvation: Poem
What do you want from me?
What is the purpose you think I have?
You gave me life
You gave me choice
Then you chained me down
Took away my freedom
Yet you ask why I don’t pray
My heart can only take
So much beating
Tearing
And bleeding
Yet you ask why I don’t pray
My back was strong once
Could hold the world
Then you spat at my conviction
Laughed at my dreams
My strength is crumbling
Yet you ask why I don’t pray
I used to worship you
I looked up to you
Idolized you
But you tore me down
My smile faltered
My happiness shattered
Yet you ask why I don’t pray
I fought for your sake
I defended you witho
Voices Invade
I find myself typing up once again.
However I feel them scratching away in the back of my head.
It hurts. It hurts. It hurts again!
I tried the silence.
Clear your head. Clear your head. CLEAR YOUR HEAD!!!
That’s all I heard. Felt. Screamed!
But now I feel them.
Scratching away.
Thrashing inside.
You hear us! We know you do!
I thought I’d locked them away.
When did they last get out?
Two weeks?
Three weeks ago?
I don’t remember.
I don’t want to hear them.
Don’t want to feel them.
I was so close.
The puzzle almost finished.
But they’re tearing it apart.
Poor poor you. We’ve come to play.
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Hope things get better for you.